My mood's on a roller coaster nowadays.

Most of the time I'm joking and playing around with you. I get high naturally when people around me get high. But when I'm alone at night..I hallucinate again.

Then again..it boils down to a poor spiritual walk with God at this point of time. I just realised church service is so important to me..because I need constant exhortation and spiritual food. I still can reminisce the times when I experienced so much warmth from cell group. And just mingling with fellow christians makes my day. I've to set things right soon.

I must admit..I'm getting easily upset over certain issues, certain people at this point of time. Some things..I wish it didn't happen. Some things..I wish it wasn't my fault..but somehow it just is. Some people..whom I need a lifetime to understand. Some of the things people around me have done..I wish I can just act ignorant and close one eye. Plus 5566's song Hui Dao Wo Shen Bian playing in winamp now. The minor key and saddening lyrics. My mood's super down now haha.

Ke bu ke yi bu yao zheng bian, wo men dao di shei cuo shei dui.

Go download the song k..it's really nice. I'm not bluffing. Haha.

Aye, sometimes I have no idea what I want. For now..maybe a big hug will do. No no..I need counselling. No lah. I need a break from everything, from everybody. Please take me away. Why didn't you wait for me.

Oh my..enough. The more I type the more I'll wallow in depression.